Yeah, it's tons of fun.
I haven't even turned on my computer for about 4 days because I was either too depressed to want to do anything or too manic to sit still. The bi-polar is finally starting to equalize, at least as equalized as it ever gets. I always have some kind up roller coaster going, but I can usually keep it to a kiddie ride instead of a demon coaster.
So much has happened in the past few days that I'm not able to put is all down. I don't want to think about the details too much because I don't want to trigger another bi-polar episode or a panic attack. Yesterday I was talking to a friend about how manic I was and triggered a panic episode. I really don't want to do that again.
It is so "fun" that just talking about being manic or panicked that it triggers what I am talking about. Just one of those exciting things about having a mental illness that people never seem to talk about.
So for now I will just say that I am starting to settle a bit and just leave it at that. Maybe I'll talk about it later, but not now.
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