Reboot

I have been dormant for a while, just getting by day by day and not doing anything too dramatic. I felt like I was doing better; like I was healing. I was buried underground, safe and cozy, and from time to time I would poke a stem or leaf above the soil and then pull back again.

Well, any feeling of well being I had was shattered last week when I got paperwork from Social Security about my disability. It has been 5 years and they need updates from me, my doctors, and my parents to determine if I am still disabled. It took days to get through the questionnaires. And each question brought up traumas and anxiety triggers that I thought were a thing of the past.

So now we reboot. I know I am not doing as well as I thought I was. But now I know it. I am no longer operating under the assumption that I am approaching "normal". I am better able to pinpoint what issues I need to work on.

For one, I am going to make this blog a constant thing. I will stretch the "and more" part a bit because I want to work through some of my other health issues as well. I want to share what it is like to be me. I want to share music that helps me through bad days. I want to share poems, scientific research, and anything else that I think will help me and others like me. Also, keep an eye on my Facebook page for other info and updates.

Here we go.